yes.

all i know is that if jesus was here today i'm pretty sure this is where he would be, and he'd be super pumped.

time out.

arabella came up to me and said 'baby, time out'

i said 'baby needs a time out?'

she said 'yes'

'why?' i asked

'baby, nono fings' (baby, no no things)

'baby was doing no no things?'

'yes'



hmmmm... where have i heard this before?



and just for future reference arabella calls home 'homo'

she's the best.

i dont know

i was feeling bummed last night because i had a realization that every once in a while slams back into me like a ton of bricks.

i dont have a best friend.

i have friends who are the best friends to me out of all my friends... really super close friends that i adore and who are super great. i wouldn't trade them for one best friend... but still every once in a while i see something or i see two people that remind me that i dont have that one best friend that so many people have and it makes me really sad. i always wanted to have that connection with one person who knows you inside out and you the same with them, just the two of you. especially when you grew up together or something... which obviously i never could have had since i never stayed in one place longer than a year and now i'm pretty sure i never will have... because every one else already has their best friend or has already grown up with someone... i can't grow up again. ha. but really even with my two closest friends, they are my best friends in the sense that they really treat me the best and are the closest to me out of all my friends. but even they have their own best friend who has been there their whole life... each other. funny. anyway sometimes i just want that soooo bad, someone who feels passionate about the things i do like healthy eating/living, natural childbirth, god, politics etc... but at the same time wants to watch gossip girl with me and have fake crushes on chuck bass... or wants to look at us weekly and talk about how ashlee simpson is pregnant or what dresses are cute or how stars really are 'just like us'. its hard to even find people who are passionate about the things i am and also like totally superficial lame teenage shows...
its always one or the other.

i'm thinking...its hard enough for me to just be friends with people. i am very particular about who i spend my time with because i know i'm a very hard person to understand and handle... so i'm pretty sure at this point i've found all the people who could possibly understand me to the point flo and erin do... and i'm starting to wonder if anyone understanding or relating to me more than that is even a possible reality, if i could find them, and i mean if they even exist. cause even with me and erin and flo.. we agree on most big stuff, some we dont but when it comes to the little things we're almost opposite about EVERYTHING. which is cool with them and i like it. but sometimes you just want someone to totally get why you like all the little things you like because they like them too...

anyway i'm so thankful for the friendships i have, i prayed to find someone who understood me my whole life and God gave me three people, which is insane... and i do have a husband who really was and is my best friend. i hate saying it cause it sounds so cliche and everyone thinks they marry their best friend.... but i mean like... all we were for so long was best friends... which is also amazing. but i guess its just a normal thing for a girl to have this deep down desire to have that special friendship with another girl who can relate to you in everything.. or almost everything.

i feel like deep down i've always been alone, not completely understood by anyone... i think growing up so differently to most the people i have known has A LOT to do with that... it just makes this deep ache in my heart that most the time i dont feel... but every once in while i get reminded of it and i just wish with all my heart that i had that friendship.

ok second blogsalot.

look out cause this is going to be sickeningly cute....
seriously, it even makes me sick.






















photosesh 2008.

we wanted to remember our 3rd anniversary very well.

it was so nice.
we went to buona tavola (one of our fav restaurants)

and our waiter said bruschetta like flo.

i couldn't decide if he really was italian or not cause sometimes he had an accent and then sometimes he didn't... i was like 'is he doing that thing my mom and flo do?' and seth was like 'he's probably has an italian family but grew up here'

i think he went to italy last summer and is just a little too excited about it.

either way it was awesome.

we got everything we wanted.
bruchetta, this eggplant thing, tortelloni, wine, beer, tiramisu, and gelato.

then we went to lineas and sat out back and had drinks and talked.

we came home and rented 'what happens in vegas'

AWESOME. haha. loved it.

it was such a nice night, and sooooo nice to not have ara (no offense baby) and our dear friends erin and karl didn't even ask us to pick her up until the next day at 12!!!!!

look out fourth year... here we come!

i've got lotsa bloggin to do....

ok first of all i wanted to say that i tried out the baking soda apple cider vinegar thing... for my hair... and i loved it the first time... i'm going to try it for a couple weeks and see how it goes. my hair is super soft and dried actually pretty nice on its own, which i never really let it do... and it doesn't smell like anything to me, seth says he can barely smell the acv if he puts his nose in my hair... so there's that. but he likes the way it smells.... anyway we'll see, i will keep an update going.

secondly maybe i'm just a proud parent but arabella has become kind of obsessed with coloring and knowing what color everything is and i think she's kind of a genius. ok maybe not a genius, but definitely a creative mind like her papa... most the kids, well all the kids i've been around... which isnt a ton, but i did do a little bit of daycare at the gym where they colored everyday... anyway most the kids i've been around usually just choose a couple colors to color with or one and color not really balanced if they choose more than one color... but arabella HAS to use EVERY color, every time she colors.... and she names every one when she takes them out, and she has to have her hands washed in the middle of coloring and she has to put the lid back on every time she's done with a marker. now i thought it was creative that she always uses each color and pretty evenly (like its not tons of one color over the rest) but the other day when i was in bed she made this picture and seth was sooo proud of how she made the little circle on the end in the middle with most the colors and then she specifically took the red and made two little circles on either side of that one, then she used the purple on both of those but not the middle one... shes obviously thinking a lot about what colors to use and how exactly she wants to use them... and all her pictures turn out so pretty cause they're soooo colorful... anyway here's the picture...



and then today we were at my midwife's house and right after mary measured me ara grabbed the measuring tape and came over to me like she knew exactly what she was doing and measured me.... she's so crazy into everything mary does at my appointments. we're gonna need to get her a fetal scope and measuring tape of her own.

family time.

what lil weirdos.


at adam passion's wedding there was this statue of a little boy and arabella kind of had a HUGE crush on him. she wanted to sit in his wheel barrow and hug and kiss him non stop.....




and this was our trip to thai food on labor day...

















and i think a more accurate 31 weeks...

i will never bake you a home made cake.

that's what i told seth when we got married. he loved baked goods and had always gotten home made cakes from his mother or grandmother for his birthday, home made breads, pretty much everything home made. i came from a box cake, mac n cheese fam... and the only thing i had ever baked was apple pie.. and all i did was peel the apples...

anyway i dont know what the hell happened but if you know me, you know that i'm kind of a baking machine now. seth brought to my attention that this weekend i made home made lasagna with home made sauce, whole wheat bread, zucchini bread, apple pie and two batches of pancakes. and i love it. i would NEVER give anyone i know a box cake ever again... even when we have birthday parties for one of seth's friends... i make them a home made cake.... that's whole wheat. i love waking up on the weekends and knowing i can bake whatever fun treat breakfast we want to have, i love knowing that even if all we have is flour i can make a delicious loaf of bread, i love that if someone comes here and has a desire for something sweet, that my hands have the ability to make it out of nothing and it makes them happy. i love testing just how healthy yet still fluffy and tasty i can make a baked good....

seth really brings out the best parts of me. the home maker. the baker. the vegetarian.... we were talking last night about how crazy it is that if either one of us thinks about being married to someone who ate meat that we wouldn't be able to handle it.. it just really means a lot to us. but it wasnt always that way for me and its so awesome that it some how became that way and i can relate to seth in that way, it may sound silly to people who dont care about eating meat, but its super important to me and seth and its really important that we both understand that feeling....

i'm just so glad that i dont hate baking anymore, or cleaning the house, or not eating meat, or doing laundry, or cooking... its so fun to be a wife and mom, and its so fun to take care of your house for your family... and i'm so thankful that i get o do that for them and that i get to enjoy doing it.