COME ON GUYS.

you know its serious when i use all caps.

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children of alcoholics

i have a question.

i'm not really blogging again but this is the best way for me to contact many people and hopefully find someone with a common experience.

i dont think i know anyone who had or has alcoholic parents, if i do they haven't ever told me.

anyway whenever seth drinks and i dont (so i'm FULLY aware of how he is) i get SUPER freaked out. it has NOTHING to do with him. he's never crazy drunk or even drunk, weird or anything. i feel uncomfortable with him drinking, like i wont be safe if he's drinking... if he gets a buzz and i can tell and i dont have one i start to get massive anxiety and i feel totally unsafe (again, nothing to do with him because he's the same when he drinks, only more fun maybe? ;) haha. the way his eyes look remind me of my moms when she was drunk (i'm sure ANYONE's eyes would remind me of hers when they're drinking but i dont pay attention to other peoples eyes) .... anyway, i just wanted to know if other people who had alcoholic parents dealt with this and how they fixed it or what... i dont want to be paranoid when he drinks and i want to act like i trust him when he's drinking... because inside i do trust him but i dont act like it because i just feel like a little girl again who has no one to take care of them. i just feel alone and afraid even though there's nothing to be afraid of, i'm not alone, i'm safe and he doesn't even actually need to be taking care of me! ha.

anyway if you have had this same thing tell me about it please... if you dont want to write on here you can always email me...
ibloomblaum@hotmail.com

dear readers

i'm pretty over blogging.

good bye.

well, it happened.

my baby got sick.

i picked ara up from school... she was just as normal as ever, running around, laughing, happy, hugging her friends... on the drive home she was fussy, kinda weird but i just thought she was tired. her nap is usually right when she gets home from school.

we walked in, she went to hug seth, turned looked at me and threw up all over.

she threw up about 6 more times until she fell asleep about two hours later. poor hunny.

i was able to sit with her without one little bit of anxiety. i put towels under her while she laid down and i got a bowl for her to throw up in. nola was sleeping which was AMAZING. i dont know what i would have done with her all up in ara's grill while she was trying to throw up.

it was the saddest thing i've ever seen in my entire life. her tiny little body in so much pain and she was SO calm and collected about it. i was very proud of her.

this is a very big deal because i have wondered how i would handle this when it came, if i'd be able to do it and if i could if i would still be freaking out inside. no freaking.

i feel so thankful that i could be there for her and take care of her and make the whole sick situation be as comfortable, safe and peaceful as possible.

she's better now and in bed.

(in case you haven't read before and you're wondering why this is such a big deal.... i've been an emetophobic my entire life until recently)

anyone who is family...

just walk away from the computer RIGHT now.

i'm serious.

unless its those rouge fam members (you know who you are).

alright. here it is.

(and that's a cute one)

i know i just made your night.

bummer.

not cool

this

is


sick

"what is that?" you ask...
oh they're just multiple boxes of fruit snacks, with characters on them, right at a two year olds eye level.
no biggie.

so normally i dont go to the regular grocery store, unless i'm running in real fast to grab formula, ice, or alcohol, you know, the basics. anyway, we went full on shopping at Vons the other day because i didn't want to go to a thousand stores to get all the things i needed and out of all the regular stores Vons has the most easily accessible, fairly prices organic food while also carrying things like ice, alcohol and organic (and cheap) formula. so while i'm there i go into culture shock. i can't EVEN believe the food that is there for starters, secondly the way they market food towards children is DISGUSTING. there are characters on EVERYTHING. well everything that is bad for them anyway. no wonder we have obese children. i see so many parents out and about every day who obviously have no control over their children or who dont know how to say 'no'. combine that with the character covered junk food at the grocery store and i TOTALLY get it. its infuriating. using children to sell, and then selling them things that will harm their bodies. where have our morals and convictions gone? i mean, i'm not one to hold fast to tons of morals but come on... this is ridiculous. and if we are going to exploit our children by placing such things right at their level, why not fill those boxes with whole grains? why not put characters on veggie stands? why not encourage them to eat things that will help them grow and thrive????

i was very proud of arabella (who, by the way, walks on her own EVERY time we go to the store now) because with all that temptation, she was GREAT. all i had to say was "no hunny, put it back" and it was back on the shelf and we were picking out veggies and beans. she has never been under such rude temptation at trader joes. the craziest thing she walks by and has to refrain from grabbing there is fruit and vitamins. shame on disney. shame on nickelodean and shame on the food industry.

dead as a doornail

so i told you i was reading the sookie stackhouse novels about 2 weeks ago. everyone wanted to know if i liked them. i'm halfway through book five, in two weeks. so, yes. there's drama, murder, sex, fantasy..... things i didn't know i liked in books until i met twilight. they're definitely more dirty and scandalous than twilight... which is good and bad. i like scandalous and i like dirty, but not dirty south so much. they're a bit cheesy and its hard to come to terms with the southern aspect of it, especially the bad dressing, but when i get past that i really like them. they're very entertaining.

it was really funny because lately everytime seth comes home and i'm reading, when he walks in the door i jump... and he's been feeling like there's something wrong or somethings on my mind... we talked about it today and he realized that its all because i'm so into these intense books. i jump every time he walks in because there's pretty much someone being murdered on every page.. haha.

i've got 4 and a half books left and i want to finish them ASAP because i'd really like to be reading along with oprahs bookclub... and she's anouncing the new pick this friday.... so i'm gonna try and at least finish this book tonight. i hope!