on sunday we went to abc again.
and paid to get cups of water.
anyway, while we were in the service seth and i were talking (we had gotten there late so we didn't really know what was going on anyway) and i just felt this feeling of complete love for nola. like i knew her. now i feel like i can picture her, like my heart is longing to see her because she is the missing part of our lives. i've felt afraid of arabella not being my only girl but i just realized that although they are both girls they both fill totally different roles in our family. arabella started our family, she taught us so much about love by being our first experience of a love like this... and nola is completing our family, without her we are not complete. i love this feeling because i've just felt so crappy about being pregnant and so scared about having another baby and not wanting this, and all of a sudden i can't wait, i can't wait for my family to be complete and whole.