Tuesday, August 26, 2008

nola chlo

on sunday we went to abc again.
and paid to get cups of water.

anyway, while we were in the service seth and i were talking (we had gotten there late so we didn't really know what was going on anyway) and i just felt this feeling of complete love for nola. like i knew her. now i feel like i can picture her, like my heart is longing to see her because she is the missing part of our lives. i've felt afraid of arabella not being my only girl but i just realized that although they are both girls they both fill totally different roles in our family. arabella started our family, she taught us so much about love by being our first experience of a love like this... and nola is completing our family, without her we are not complete. i love this feeling because i've just felt so crappy about being pregnant and so scared about having another baby and not wanting this, and all of a sudden i can't wait, i can't wait for my family to be complete and whole.

8 comments:

MEGAN said...

that is beautiful!

Mrs. Warren said...

it's so amazing when you turn a corner like that. i hated being pregnant and i didn't fully realize how much i loved my daughter until she was born, and then it hit me like a ton of bricks once i first saw her. it was insane how something major clicked in my brain and i finally realized how necessary she was to me, and how i was incomplete without her, and i didn't know any of that until i saw her.

Melissa said...

This is completely off subject with your post, but I was wondering if you could give me some feedback on what kind of diapering you use. I thought I remembered seeing a picture of Arabella in cloth diapers, so I wanted to see what has worked best for you.
We are having our first baby in January, so I'm trying to get some research done from actual moms before then.
Thanks, I appreciate any help you can give!
P.s. You can email me at Melissa.soto7@gmail.com if you want.
-Melissa

Erin Kathleen said...

I am so happy for you!

A thankful heart said...

A couple of things...First..I looooove the picture of Ara in the bucket bent completely over, trying to dunk her head in the water...classic:) Second, I love the "rock a cow" video...our boys love tipping over. Funny:) Third, I've been praying for you to finally be at peace about welcoming a sweet babe into your family...I was sooo blessed to read this. It made my heart melt a little. and Fourth...call me crazy or weird or whatever...but I was one of the 46%...with Jaden I knew that through all the pain of our situation, regardless I was getting a wonderful, innocent, and precious baby...and I felt so unworthy and undeserving...and I still do. I was totally nervous (about the uncertainties...not being a mommy, but finances, relationships, etc...) but I was completely excited and loving every moment of his impending arrival. With Brady, I had more time to sit and enjoy every movement, nerve spasm:), cramp, every part of it was a joy...even the pain, because I knew he was alive and kicking..and Jaden, Rex and the whole family were excited about his impending arrival too! So, I totally know it's possible to absolutely love your baby before they're born! Anyway, I'm done cleaning..and leaving a coment, so I'm off to the land of dreams:)

monica said...

i know this is kind of a stupid comment because no situation is the same ever and there are good things and bad things to every family make-up (only child or 10 kids or whatever), but i just felt like saying that i have a little sister who is a little less than 2 years younger than me, and i really can't imagine my life growing up or now without her.

even though we had to share a room growing up and used to pretty much try to literally kill each other sometimes, and even though she is the most opposite of me that any person could be, she's always been there through absolutely everything and we've had a unique bond since we were so close in age and shared a lot of the same friends and went through similar things at the same time. not only will nola and ara complete different roles in your family, but hopefully they'll also have such a sweet little relationship with each other that will be like nothing else they could experience without each other.

Gombojav Tribe said...

Oh, I'm so happy for you! I know exactly how you feel. I felt that way when I got pregnant with Israel and again when I got pregnant with Caesar. And then there was a moment when it changed and I was excited.

I'm so glad it happened for you, too!

Corinne said...

Yea!!! I am so excited for you too!