gag me with...

my own fingers....


so arabella has been gagging herself for maybe a couple weeks... just every once in a while. gag. then on thanksgiving she made herself puke. i hate that she does this and it makes me feel so sad inside. i've looked it up and a lot a lot of toddlers do it, as a way to get attention. so i guess this is her way of reacting to nola coming. when i freaked out and got really worried she did it more, but since i've started to just be nonchalant about it and just say 'oh dont do that hunny, it'll hurt you' she stops. i hope this stops for real soon. poor muffin. i hate that there isn't enough of me to go around. ....

kind of on the same note, i forgot to write on here that like a month maybe even two months ago... ara threw up for the first time. and i didn't have a nervous breakdown and leave her to clean it up herself like i've always feared. haha, i must really be a mom now... i didn't even feel shaky inside. i just cleaned it up, hugged her and accidentally even let her kiss me on the lips. sick. it was really cute cause she was just dancing in the mirror in one of her dresses holding it out to the sides and then she just projectile vomited onto the mirror... looked at me, looked down and just looked shocked! i asked if she felt sick or ok and she said ok... she was normal the rest of the day... but it was really funny how sudden and crazy it was, and that it was just on the mirror. hahhaha oh poopie.