when your baby screams for an hour straight.
when your fully potty trained two year old pees 10 times in a row on the FLOOR.
when your baby that practically sleeps through the night starts to nurse from midnight to 5am EVERY night.
when your two year old doesn't listen to a single word you say and says its because she's 'greeeeeaaaat'.
when she throws her beans all over the floor and smiles cleverly.
when you haven't taken a shower in... you can't remember how long.
when neither of your kids will take their naps and some even put up a fight for two hours straight.
... and after this you feel like you want to shake one and smack the other.
just walk away...
and talk to your fellow mothers, because i dont think i know one mother who hasn't felt this way at one time or another.
nothing can ground you like knowing you are not alone and you are not crazy... well you are crazy but its just because you're a mom.
its amazing to feel one second like you are the worst parent that has ever lived and you are damaging your children forever and the next to feel the freedom of fellowship in friends who have been in your shoes, who see the mother you really are.
i'm unbelievably thankful for my mother friends, because we hold each other up when the other is week. we all know where to go when we need to tell someone its all too much. we can rely on that voice to tell us its ok and that gives us what we need to get up and do it again tomorrow, with more love and more patience than the day before.
dont be afraid to say the worst thoughts you have out loud, because i can almost guarantee i've thought it, or your mom friend has and when we say things out loud we are freed from them.. its when we can't recognize our struggle or can't express our desperation that it can take over our lives and minds.