Thursday, November 6, 2008

stress stinks.

aridxx will not work. so first of all i'm still pregnant... but having contractions all day and all night! so they just wake me up all through the night, but nothing happens.... our car wouldn't start last night, its the battery, we got it home but the connection needs to be cleaned and what not, which isn't a big deal, but just right now its stressful. i thought it was stressful that nola's car seat wasn't in yet. now there are no car seats in the car and it wont start..... then the big stressful thing... arabella in the morning. she has been consistently trying to be awake awake at 5am. she'll try to get up at 5, 515, 530, 545 and then we'll finally just wake up at 6... we have tried everything, earlier bedtime, later bedtime, letting her cry, helping her out... and its just hard because seth has a cold now so i feel bad letting him get up cause he needs to get better and its hard for me to get up because one its super painful and two not to gross all of you out, but there's so much stuff coming out of me i have to change me chones anytime i get up at night to pee or help ara.... and even if i dont help ara i'm already getting up a few times. so now i will try the only thing left.... shorter nap time. any mother out there knows how precious that time is, and cutting back on it, especially now when both seth and i are beat and nolas is obviously on her way will be a huge bummer... but since its next to impossible to get either of us up every morning at 5am, i'll just have to suck up the one less hour of naptime... hopefully it will work at least.

on a happier note i have super sweet friends, i'd just like to give them a shot out ahaha.. but seriously, i WILL NOT ask for help... trust me. unless i'm dying, its from seth or i can have him call his mom and ask. the thing is i lived a life where we took hand outs non stop, everyone was always helping us, so i hate not being able to do things for myself now and i dont want to be the needy friend/family member/neighbor/anything. plus i feel like i never NEED help... i mean the one time i felt like it was impossible to live without some help was when i had the flu and literally couldn't lift my head.... all this to say, i wont ask for help cause i can pretty much always handle it, its just not gonna be good or pretty sometimes. i dont know if its useful trying to get me to start, cause i dont know if that will ever change... but we'll see.. ok so back to my great friends... erin lundeen texted me to see how things were and when i told her how i was still in pain so i was laying in bed letting arabella run wild and had had seth bring me pizza and pop tarts that i had no reservations about sharing with ara since all she had been living on was milk and bananas... she secretly called my neighbor erin and told her i needed some help, but probably wasn't going to ask for it.... erin h (my neighbor) called me and said she was coming to get ara for the afternoon. what sweet sweet friends.

i ended up staying in bed/on the couch most of the time and then making myself take a shower cause again, not to gross all of you out (sorry to travis if you read this) but all i could smell around me was cervical fluid and mucous plug. so sick. in the end the shower didn't change that much... but it was better. hahahaha. i love my life.

8 comments:

Cheatwoods said...

Ill take her for a few hours, maybe we can visit the steffenours down the street and ILl take little sweetie with me! I promise she cant be more active that Josiah was/is!

E said...

Yeah, well...you're a sweet friend too. Remember when you came over and cleaned my house and watched the kids while I got ready for Soren's party?? Super sweet. I'm glad you got a chance to rest...and shower. Um, gross.

Don't worry about the car seats. If they're not in by the time she's born, I will personally install them. (Just where will you be going right after she's born??:)

I know I keep telling you this, but as stupid as this whole "I'm in labor/Oh wait-no I'm not" thing is-I really think it means this labor is going to be totally different than Arabella's. You're almost done!! See you soon :)

Travis Avila said...

you know, in some countries, they eat the placenta. you'll have to call us when the baby is born. i can see it now...placenta grilling nicely on the BBQ, a glass of red wine, kids playing in the backyard, mmmmm.....

Emery Jo said...

re your comment: i'm so so thrilled that you like 'it'. it almost makes me want to cry. um, i am a ridiculous crying machine lately.

you're in my thoughts today... hope your hips aren't killing you today and that you got some good rest.

skylana said...

oh trav--- in some countries... i hate to be the one to tell you but... they do that here too. just not at the hospital ;) on that note... you all should totally come up right after she's born....

skylana said...

e-- wow, i do sounds sweet... but i can honestly say i have absolutely no recollection of ever doing that for you! hahaa.. wow. and about the carseats... i would LOVE that, you are probably the ONE person i would trust to do that for me, or flo if she were here. i hope its different, mary seems to think it will, she's more worried about not having enough time to get up here once its real.... i hope she just shoots right out and lands in her bassinet.

skylana said...

oh... and i was thinking of taking a trip to disneyland asap... haha no i was just thinking worse case scenario of hospital transfer and then it not being installed when we bring her home... plus i dont trust anyone else besides myself to put it in and obviously i wont be able to do that any time soon after she comes.... thank God for you.

lucinda! said...

i have seen this night light thing, you set it like a timer. when the moon is on it they are supposed to be in there bed, room, where ever(just not bothering you) and when the sun is on it they can get up. i forget where i saw this this but supposably(sp?)helps them get into a pattern of sleeping later. also, i have been telling noah that "she is going to have this baby SO soon"and that your "labor is going to be so easy". she is already at 0 station. i think a few good pushes(if that) and she will be here. i cant wait to see pictures of her. (sounds kind of creepy, sorry). oh and the chp can install your carseat or i should say when i was pregnant they were installing carseats every wednesday. i hope some of this crazy mess helps you