understand

i know it seems complicated.

my need for being understood isn't that i want people who dont get me now to start getting me... i just want to meet people who like me from the start.

that's why i struggle with wanting to be understood but not being willing to change the way i am for people.


i realized that today.

its been nice hanging out with people down here, i haven't shocked one person.

i think i only shock people who have known me for a long time and expect me to be what they've always known.