i know it seems complicated.
my need for being understood isn't that i want people who dont get me now to start getting me... i just want to meet people who like me from the start.
that's why i struggle with wanting to be understood but not being willing to change the way i am for people.
i realized that today.
its been nice hanging out with people down here, i haven't shocked one person.
i think i only shock people who have known me for a long time and expect me to be what they've always known.