the harsh reality enters my mind, again. as it does everyday, that this is what i do with my life.
i know a lot of people will say 'raising kids is the most amazing thing you can do' etc etc.
but i think for a person like me, who feels like there is an endless amount of multifaceted sides of me, its not enough. it will never be enough. and i'm pretty sure that as long as i'm home every day, even when i'm enjoying it, i will be missing a part of myself.
i'm sure everyone feels this way, with different things. i get that there is a very small amount of people who get to do what they love with their life. seth feels like he works his life away in an office. i feel like my intelligence is wasted on cleaning floors and wiping butts.
how do i get out of here? this has been my question since it started. like practically, how do i change this situation... i dont want to feel like i'm losing myself and wasting my life because of circumstance. we create our circumstances, certainly we can change them. i'm not actually asking you guys, though i'm sure you'll give me answers. i'm just throwing the question out in the universe....
somehow i need to feel like i'm working towards the goal of being out of the house.
alright... i gotta go finish cleaning my house before its time to nurse a baby.