Thursday, March 5, 2009
i got iron.... good iron combined with an insane amount of b12 that my friend brook suggested and seriously the difference is night and day. i thought i either had cancer, thyroid issues or was pregnant. i mean i was waking up every morning feeling like i had a hangover, i was tired all day to the point that i would fall asleep in the afternoon on accident (after having more than 8 hours of sleep most nights), and my hair started falling out (put my pregnancy fears to rest). gnarl. i was ready to stop on the side of the highway, jump over the barbed wire fences and bite right into a live cow. luckily now, i wont have to do that. i had decided that if these pills didnt make a significant difference in a week i would somehow bring myself to eat a steak, this did not appeal to me in any way especially while watching a grocer man handle a raw slab of beef in front of me the other day. i dont know how i would/will be able to cook raw flesh myself. hopefully it will never come to that. anyway, im sooo much better im sleeping well, i feel rested when i wake up, i didnt even take a nap yesterday! its crazy to feel like a normal person again, i had forgotten what it was like.
also i went and hung out with a new mom friend and her kids and it was super great for me. i really like her and it was adorable how much her older son and arabella liked each other.... he kept calling her 'your girl' to me. she wasn't wearing a diaper and i was afraid she would forget to tell me if she had to go because we were in a new place, she was playing and might be nervous in front of him... when he ran out onto the stairs and said 'um excuse me your girl... she's peein in my room' haha.. woooops.
then he drew some pictures with chalk outside and one was 'me, your girl and a heart'...
then she snuck into their pantry and found some scrumptious cereal and he let us know... 'excuse me, my new sister (pause for laughs from us) i mean... your girl.. she got into that cereal i love'.
it was really nice to hang out with another mom, since i haven't since i've been down here and since i like her as a person, not just a fellow mom.
i haven't written on here lately, because i've had nothing to say, except talk about how sad i've felt... and i didn't want to write about that anymore. i think the whole being excessively tired and lacking in nutrients is what has been making me so depressed and irritable... anyway the past week before the iron has been the worst so far, i was starting to feel like i couldn't and shouldn't get out of bed i dont feel that way now. things are looking up.