we're in the market for pillow covers or fabric to make some, a rug and maybe a coffee table or side tables from a thrift store.... i'll post pictures when everything is done :)
Thursday, May 29, 2008
i'm so excited because in the next week or two we are getting our house painted, which has been a loooooong awaited adventure... pretty much since we painted it when we moved in.... and we just bought this couch
we're in the market for pillow covers or fabric to make some, a rug and maybe a coffee table or side tables from a thrift store.... i'll post pictures when everything is done :)
we're in the market for pillow covers or fabric to make some, a rug and maybe a coffee table or side tables from a thrift store.... i'll post pictures when everything is done :)
cesarian sections and premature birth
my friend posted this article on her blog... and obviously i like it... check it out.
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
sister bellie
so the other day ara was following me with her arms up saying 'bebe, bebe!' and i thought she just wanted me to pick her up (cause when she's usually talking about babies she calls them boo) so i was like 'one minute' and she got more frustrated yelling 'bebe! bebe!' and then i realized what she wanted and i said 'oh! you want the baby??' and she nodded and made a very very excited face... so i knelt down, she lifted up my shirt and hugged and kissed my belly....
then today she climbed into my lap and said 'bebe' and hugged and kissed my belly then pat it and said 'bebe nigh nigh' i was like 'oh is the baby night night?' and she nodded yes and said 'bebe nigh' and i said 'do you love the baby?' she made her bashful face and nodded yes..... its crazy how she somehow understands there's a baby there....
then today she climbed into my lap and said 'bebe' and hugged and kissed my belly then pat it and said 'bebe nigh nigh' i was like 'oh is the baby night night?' and she nodded yes and said 'bebe nigh' and i said 'do you love the baby?' she made her bashful face and nodded yes..... its crazy how she somehow understands there's a baby there....
Saturday, May 24, 2008
music into marriage
there have been a couple instances lately concerning seth doing music that have finally brought me closure....
when we found out we were having another baby we decided that what would be best for our family as a whole would be seth not doing music full time like we had planned.. which was really hard because not only for the first time was i seriously feeling like i could handle it but he finally had a band together and was getting pumped and getting shows booked... we decided he would finish what was booked and do conerstone, then play shows that are close and maybe do some short like 1 or 2 week tours.... we decided that for the future a couple short tours a year would be the perfect compromise where he could still do what he loved but our family would be together and have a steady income.....
although it made so much sense it was really hard to see him sad and see him really let go of something he thought would always be a certain way. it wasnt that he was giving up the dream of music either, which is what was so weird, it was him giving up this idea in his head of music being the 'it' and the idea of full time tour as a lifestyle... it didn't take long for him to stop feeling sad, and he would say how he knew it was right all the time and how he was caught up in what he thought it was supposed to be like that there wasn't room for it to be different.... i felt better, but deep inside i still had that feeling that seemed it had been there since we got married, that i was the one keeping him from his 'calling'.... he was never the one to make me feel that way. he would say that he chose us and our family and that would chose that over and over... but since we had never had a compromise until this it always was either us or music.... at least this time there was a compromise, but i still felt like the thing he was losing was my fault.
then he went on the little 2 week tour they did and when he came home in the middle for a day he told me how hard it was to be away from ara and that he would totally feel like he was missing out on her life if he did tour full time.... that helped me feel a little bit better again....
but the other night is when i finally got my closure and felt peace. he went to a show of his friends downtown and afterwards he came home and said 'that was the first time i went to a show and felt like that is not what i want to do' (tour full time, not playing music) i was shocked. before every time he went to a show he'd say how he missed doing music. this time we just talked for a long time and he just said how he felt like the life he has is perfect our family, a way to make money and music can be for fun... we talked about how when he was younger touring forever seemed great cause he was a single guy, but now he wants our family..... this doesn't make a whole lot of sense... but basically it was the first time i really truly saw that he was at complete peace and he knew deep in his heart that we were in the right place and this was the best possible outcome that could have been, even the guys in the band were telling him how he was so lucky to be in the place he is. when you are married to a musician its like there is another person in your marriage.... i've heard so many people say music is the other woman, and it really is... until the two who are in that marriage can take control of it together and find where it fits into their live together, not where they can fit into music. this has been a 3 year long battle of trying to feel peace and feel like both of us were getting what we needed and what we wanted. it was the single big thing we fought about.... i never wanted to take it away from him, and he never wanted to make me live a life i didn't want.... to know that we have finally overcome this hurdle is a feeling i can't even describe....
and this feeling is something i have felt a lot in our marriage lately, its so full and so rich. i feel like my whole life is so full of love, learning, peace, hope, happiness, forgiveness, understanding.... and nothing in my life is more overflowing with these things than my marriage. i never knew something could be this good... i feel like we have really come to a new grown up place in our marriage, its not that super crazy newlywed romance, trying to get to know what marriage means, fights about stupid stuff and learning who we are together place anymore, not that that phase wasnt necessary and fun at times... now its a warm deep romance thats full of understanding and talking, we know what we have and who we are, we know we can take on anything and talk about anything without fear or fighting, a place where we can rest in knowing that whatever or who ever comes our way, as one, the two of us can take it on and overcome, and be better than before. i'm more in love with my best friend than i ever have been.
when we found out we were having another baby we decided that what would be best for our family as a whole would be seth not doing music full time like we had planned.. which was really hard because not only for the first time was i seriously feeling like i could handle it but he finally had a band together and was getting pumped and getting shows booked... we decided he would finish what was booked and do conerstone, then play shows that are close and maybe do some short like 1 or 2 week tours.... we decided that for the future a couple short tours a year would be the perfect compromise where he could still do what he loved but our family would be together and have a steady income.....
although it made so much sense it was really hard to see him sad and see him really let go of something he thought would always be a certain way. it wasnt that he was giving up the dream of music either, which is what was so weird, it was him giving up this idea in his head of music being the 'it' and the idea of full time tour as a lifestyle... it didn't take long for him to stop feeling sad, and he would say how he knew it was right all the time and how he was caught up in what he thought it was supposed to be like that there wasn't room for it to be different.... i felt better, but deep inside i still had that feeling that seemed it had been there since we got married, that i was the one keeping him from his 'calling'.... he was never the one to make me feel that way. he would say that he chose us and our family and that would chose that over and over... but since we had never had a compromise until this it always was either us or music.... at least this time there was a compromise, but i still felt like the thing he was losing was my fault.
then he went on the little 2 week tour they did and when he came home in the middle for a day he told me how hard it was to be away from ara and that he would totally feel like he was missing out on her life if he did tour full time.... that helped me feel a little bit better again....
but the other night is when i finally got my closure and felt peace. he went to a show of his friends downtown and afterwards he came home and said 'that was the first time i went to a show and felt like that is not what i want to do' (tour full time, not playing music) i was shocked. before every time he went to a show he'd say how he missed doing music. this time we just talked for a long time and he just said how he felt like the life he has is perfect our family, a way to make money and music can be for fun... we talked about how when he was younger touring forever seemed great cause he was a single guy, but now he wants our family..... this doesn't make a whole lot of sense... but basically it was the first time i really truly saw that he was at complete peace and he knew deep in his heart that we were in the right place and this was the best possible outcome that could have been, even the guys in the band were telling him how he was so lucky to be in the place he is. when you are married to a musician its like there is another person in your marriage.... i've heard so many people say music is the other woman, and it really is... until the two who are in that marriage can take control of it together and find where it fits into their live together, not where they can fit into music. this has been a 3 year long battle of trying to feel peace and feel like both of us were getting what we needed and what we wanted. it was the single big thing we fought about.... i never wanted to take it away from him, and he never wanted to make me live a life i didn't want.... to know that we have finally overcome this hurdle is a feeling i can't even describe....
and this feeling is something i have felt a lot in our marriage lately, its so full and so rich. i feel like my whole life is so full of love, learning, peace, hope, happiness, forgiveness, understanding.... and nothing in my life is more overflowing with these things than my marriage. i never knew something could be this good... i feel like we have really come to a new grown up place in our marriage, its not that super crazy newlywed romance, trying to get to know what marriage means, fights about stupid stuff and learning who we are together place anymore, not that that phase wasnt necessary and fun at times... now its a warm deep romance thats full of understanding and talking, we know what we have and who we are, we know we can take on anything and talk about anything without fear or fighting, a place where we can rest in knowing that whatever or who ever comes our way, as one, the two of us can take it on and overcome, and be better than before. i'm more in love with my best friend than i ever have been.
Thursday, May 22, 2008
vespa
seth's vespa got stolen. he's super sad... it was an old one he loved that he bought from a friend he loves very much, we rode it away from our wedding :(... it was broken and we kept meaning to get it fixed...i know it wont be the same but i'm gonna start a vespa fund for him to get a new one. if you would like to contribute.... message me. thanks :)
viva la vida
i dont know if anyone has listened to coldplay's new title track viva la vida... but its INSANE. me and seth (and i hear jason too) have been listening to it on repeat.. haa.... but when i listen to it i feel like 'no wonder i'm not passionate about hearing new music' because its never as good as things like this, and when i hear this i'm blown away and i dont even want to listen to other music after it. i'm not the kind to get super crazy about a band, but coldplay is the exception for me. they're geniuses and when people dont like their stuff i can't let it surprise me because this band is so far ahead there are lots of people who aren't ready for what they can do.
here's they lyrics, but if you can go listen to this song, and listen to it really loud.
I used to rule the world
Seas would rise when I gave the word
Now in the morning I sweep alone
Sweep the streets I used to own
I used to roll the dice
Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes
Listen as the crowd would sing:
"Now the old king is dead! Long live the king!"
One minute I held the key
Next the walls were closed on me
And I discovered that my castles stand
Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand
I hear Jerusalem bells a ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field
For some reason I can't explain
Once you go there was never, never an honest word
That was when I ruled the world
It was the wicked and wild wind
Blew down the doors to let me in.
Shattered windows and the sound of drums
People couldn't believe what I'd become
Revolutionaries wait
For my head on a silver plate
Just a puppet on a lonely string
Oh who would ever want to be king?
I hear Jerusalem bells a ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field
For some reason I can't explain
I know Saint Peter will call my name
Never an honest word
But that was when I ruled the world
I hear Jerusalem bells a ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field
For some reason I can't explain
I know Saint Peter will call my name
Never an honest word
But that was when I ruled the world
here's they lyrics, but if you can go listen to this song, and listen to it really loud.
I used to rule the world
Seas would rise when I gave the word
Now in the morning I sweep alone
Sweep the streets I used to own
I used to roll the dice
Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes
Listen as the crowd would sing:
"Now the old king is dead! Long live the king!"
One minute I held the key
Next the walls were closed on me
And I discovered that my castles stand
Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand
I hear Jerusalem bells a ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field
For some reason I can't explain
Once you go there was never, never an honest word
That was when I ruled the world
It was the wicked and wild wind
Blew down the doors to let me in.
Shattered windows and the sound of drums
People couldn't believe what I'd become
Revolutionaries wait
For my head on a silver plate
Just a puppet on a lonely string
Oh who would ever want to be king?
I hear Jerusalem bells a ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field
For some reason I can't explain
I know Saint Peter will call my name
Never an honest word
But that was when I ruled the world
I hear Jerusalem bells a ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field
For some reason I can't explain
I know Saint Peter will call my name
Never an honest word
But that was when I ruled the world
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
let me pencil you in
i made myself a 'chore chart' because i feel like my house is eternally un-clean (not messy, CLEAN) even though i am non stop cleaning... ahhh. so i decided to clean the house from top to bottom and organize a lot of spaces and then set up a schedule that is totally manageable but will keep our house clean all week long... it goes as follows
MONDAY
water flowers
vacuum
sweep all floors
dust
TUESDAY
waterflowers
sweep all floors
mop all floors
completely clean kitchen
WEDNESDAY
water flowers
vacuum
sweep all floors
THURSDAY
water flowers
sweep all floors
mop all floors
completely clean bathroom
FRIDAY
water flowers
vacuum
sweep all floors
SATURDAY
grocery shopping
obviously this includes everyday doing the dishes, which i've been doing all day long or once in the morning and once when we go to bed so it never gets piled up... its cool because having this schedule makes everything soooo much faster and easier, just knowing what exactly i need to do that day makes it go by so fast, plus shopping saturday morning is so much better than during the week cause i usually let seth sleep in anyway and then he's here to help me bring it up... plus since i wake up early and in the morning ara is always just wanting to play with her toys alone, i get the assigned cleaning done, do any dishes there are and wipe down the kitchen counters and i have the rest of the day to do whatever i want... it feels so nice to constantly be walking on clean floors and to feel free to run other errands, do the laundry, just be with my friends, be able to help my friends and feel like everything else is already in place.... its a new life for me.
*my house is not very big so sweeping and mopping consists of like 20sq feet... ok maybe not that small, but very small.
MONDAY
water flowers
vacuum
sweep all floors
dust
TUESDAY
waterflowers
sweep all floors
mop all floors
completely clean kitchen
WEDNESDAY
water flowers
vacuum
sweep all floors
THURSDAY
water flowers
sweep all floors
mop all floors
completely clean bathroom
FRIDAY
water flowers
vacuum
sweep all floors
SATURDAY
grocery shopping
obviously this includes everyday doing the dishes, which i've been doing all day long or once in the morning and once when we go to bed so it never gets piled up... its cool because having this schedule makes everything soooo much faster and easier, just knowing what exactly i need to do that day makes it go by so fast, plus shopping saturday morning is so much better than during the week cause i usually let seth sleep in anyway and then he's here to help me bring it up... plus since i wake up early and in the morning ara is always just wanting to play with her toys alone, i get the assigned cleaning done, do any dishes there are and wipe down the kitchen counters and i have the rest of the day to do whatever i want... it feels so nice to constantly be walking on clean floors and to feel free to run other errands, do the laundry, just be with my friends, be able to help my friends and feel like everything else is already in place.... its a new life for me.
*my house is not very big so sweeping and mopping consists of like 20sq feet... ok maybe not that small, but very small.
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